It’s coming.I can feel it in my bones.That first little seedlingTaking root.It’s coming.It’s calling.With an urgency I can’t ignore.“Answer,” it says.“Answer!” it screams.“Answer...” it sings.
It’s Coming
Changes of Leucadia
Hold my hand, baby boy.Change is scary.But I will be your rock.And, you, mine.Ever stronger as we lean.The waves wash over us -Grief. Fear. Joy. Love.They shake us.Jostle and crash.But, with time,They smooth us. *Title and photo editing by Oliver Paliy
Fog
The fog lingers.Shrouding the light.Delaying the dawn.Thwarting illumination.Visibility impeded.I can’t see what’s ahead.My little light and my companion,My only guides.And my knowing…She is here.Somewhere…All my senses activated,With all my senses constrained.Limitless because of my limits.Letting go,As I am already suspended in doubt.In disbelief.In the glow of the moon.I barely saw her there behind me.But her... Continue Reading →
Racing
Racing Racing.Racing.My thoughts are racing.The months are racing.Endless pacing.Always chasing.Meanwhile, bracing.Caterpillar in its casing.Life ‘til now, somehow erasing.And the question I am always facing.Where do I go from here?
Running
Hit after hit on the pavement.Like a reckoning.Pounding...Merciless...In her skull.On the ground.Reverberations of impact in every direction.Trying to escape herself.To outrun all that hurts.All the parts…Tasting the painLike blood on her tongue.Metallic.Like a gun.Hatred, so pure and deepShe’d started to think of it as home.The only walls she’d known.(She’d known only walls…)Her only shelter,Loathing,Bringing her... Continue Reading →
Coming Home
In fact, myself.I am, in fact, myself.I feel, in fact, myself.I see, in fact, myself.For all the striving and struggling,The years where mirrors hid tears, fears and nothingness,I am starting to see.Where the air is clear and the trees part,Amber honey with their changing leaves,And make way.A clearing.A gateway.A door.Welcoming me in.Welcoming me home.Through the... Continue Reading →
Planting
We planted a tree.An apricot tree.Its fruit will feed the generations.Golden honey sunshineIn the late fall afternoon.Rich chocolate soilFull of nutrientsAnd intention.Autumn cameAnd brought us apples.Sweet crunches, cider and joy.Mature branches we met here,Well-tended over the years,Now tended to us too.Warm, cozy memories.Time rushing pastLike the creek.Out on the trail this morning,My rising extendedBy a... Continue Reading →
Two Years Free
I sit with gratitude.I can hear myself think.The beautiful knowledge:I don’t need to drink.Not even “need,”I prefer it this way.Life’s so much better.(It surprises me to say.)I couldn’t have imaginedA life without booze.I certainly wouldn’t thinkIt’d be something I’d choose.I thought it would meanThat I’d lose my shimmer.That life without alcoholWould somehow be dimmer.But what... Continue Reading →
Hunter’s Moon
Hunter’s Moon.The light, betrayed.Snake in the grass.The wolf that strayed.Scorpion’s tail,Swirling round.Churning, sweeping,Unearthing ground.Digging, dredging,Stirring things up.Rather than sipping,Shatters the cup.I see it, I feel it,The barb in my breast.I hear then from spirit,The words – “Let it rest.”It calls me, my healing,A salve like the sea.Washes over and whispersA calm, “Let it be.”
The Ache
They drive awayAnd the ache returns.It stabs me, stings me,It hurts and it burns.I yearn to fold himInto me as one.The way that we startedWhen life’d just begun.I know that can’t last,He had to break free.But it doesn’t stop,That urge from overcoming me.Every day that goes by,He grows inch by inch.At the same time my... Continue Reading →
Soliloquy on Imperfectionism 