Something in the Air

Something in the air.
I feel her.
Is this why I’ve been resisting spring?
I take in the sea of yellow flowers
And I am right back there, again.
I remember, I was distracted.
I didn’t see the beauty right before me.
Took for granted all I cherished,
And bravely (?) went out seeking more.
Looking out, ‘stead of in, left me empty,
And I found myself hiding away.
Buried in darkness, I missed the signs,
That could have released me long before.
The paradox of being so stuck,
You stop even hoping to break free.
Looking to spring for metaphors,
Knowing I desperately needed rebirth.
I let myself be the victim,
And you vanished as I licked my wounds.
I cannot rejoice in springtime.
I miss you everywhere I look.
You are not here to smell the roses.
Ride alongside me as I go…
I won’t hide from regret, choose to feel it.
My life, a living amends.
In a heartbreaking lesson, you taught me
All we have for sure is right now.
How we use precious moments is up to us.
There is no time to wait for intention.