The fog lingers.Shrouding the light.Delaying the dawn.Thwarting illumination.Visibility impeded.I can’t see what’s ahead.My little light and my companion,My only guides.And my knowing…She is here.Somewhere…All my senses activated,With all my senses constrained.Limitless because of my limits.Letting go,As I am already suspended in doubt.In disbelief.In the glow of the moon.I barely saw her there behind me.But her... Continue Reading →
Racing Racing.Racing.My thoughts are racing.The months are racing.Endless pacing.Always chasing.Meanwhile, bracing.Caterpillar in its casing.Life ‘til now, somehow erasing.And the question I am always facing.Where do I go from here?
Hit after hit on the pavement.Like a reckoning.Pounding...Merciless...In her skull.On the ground.Reverberations of impact in every direction.Trying to escape herself.To outrun all that hurts.All the parts…Tasting the painLike blood on her tongue.Metallic.Like a gun.Hatred, so pure and deepShe’d started to think of it as home.The only walls she’d known.(She’d known only walls…)Her only shelter,Loathing,Bringing her... Continue Reading →
In fact, myself.I am, in fact, myself.I feel, in fact, myself.I see, in fact, myself.For all the striving and struggling,The years where mirrors hid tears, fears and nothingness,I am starting to see.Where the air is clear and the trees part,Amber honey with their changing leaves,And make way.A clearing.A gateway.A door.Welcoming me in.Welcoming me home.Through the... Continue Reading →
We planted a tree.An apricot tree.Its fruit will feed the generations.Golden honey sunshineIn the late fall afternoon.Rich chocolate soilFull of nutrientsAnd intention.Autumn cameAnd brought us apples.Sweet crunches, cider and joy.Mature branches we met here,Well-tended over the years,Now tended to us too.Warm, cozy memories.Time rushing pastLike the creek.Out on the trail this morning,My rising extendedBy a... Continue Reading →
I sit with gratitude.I can hear myself think.The beautiful knowledge:I don’t need to drink.Not even “need,”I prefer it this way.Life’s so much better.(It surprises me to say.)I couldn’t have imaginedA life without booze.I certainly wouldn’t thinkIt’d be something I’d choose.I thought it would meanThat I’d lose my shimmer.That life without alcoholWould somehow be dimmer.But what... Continue Reading →
Hunter’s Moon.The light, betrayed.Snake in the grass.The wolf that strayed.Scorpion’s tail,Swirling round.Churning, sweeping,Unearthing ground.Digging, dredging,Stirring things up.Rather than sipping,Shatters the cup.I see it, I feel it,The barb in my breast.I hear then from spirit,The words – “Let it rest.”It calls me, my healing,A salve like the sea.Washes over and whispersA calm, “Let it be.”
They drive awayAnd the ache returns.It stabs me, stings me,It hurts and it burns.I yearn to fold himInto me as one.The way that we startedWhen life’d just begun.I know that can’t last,He had to break free.But it doesn’t stop,That urge from overcoming me.Every day that goes by,He grows inch by inch.At the same time my... Continue Reading →
Dragonflies in the summer sun.Long days, warm nights have just begun.The water courses down the stream.Calming sounds just like in dreams.Rocks jut all around.Jagged edges, cliffs abound.But round the bend, if you look close,Seats have smoothed as if to host.We ventured down to frolic and play,And temper the heat on this bright June day. I... Continue Reading →
Act now.Don’t wait.Hesitate,And it might be too late.Isn’t this whyYou’ve been listeningTo your knowingEven when it was whispering?Charge forward.Intuition will guide.Charge forward.No reason to hide.Act with faith.Act with fire.Know your resolveWill take you higher.Sureness in step.Sureness in path.Clarity envelopes me,Like a warm bath.Strong and wiseAs the trees all around.Trust. When we trust,Blessings abound.
Soliloquy on Imperfectionism 