I wait.I can feel everything start to clenchFrom my chest through to my core.Like a spreading warmth…With thorns…Twisting and wounding as it unfurls.Catching my breath on its sharpness.So many things circling.So much up in the air.So many consequences flowing from each outcome.So much to plan for,Yet impossible to chart a course.How do I find peace?Bracing... Continue Reading →
I walk this trail like years beforeBut, of course, for the first time.The rocks underfoot make the ground shift beneath me.Pray to steady myself. At times the path is treacherous.The cliff so close,Then falling off.Pray for my balance to hold. Mountains and trees soaring skyward.Deep ravine cuts below.I am dizzy with my smallness.As I breathe... Continue Reading →
Today, we start work on our house. It is something I have resisted for eleven years. When we moved in, I could not believe my great fortune. I saw it first in pictures sitting across the country as we planned our move. It was fairly unassuming but I just knew, even then, it would be... Continue Reading →
Rain falls like teardropsBut we must remember the sun.When the wind howls and turns us ‘round,We must remember the sun.Sometimes, the clouds obscure it.Maybe wisps that simply dim,Maybe deep, heavy grey casting all into night.The radiance can feel so far away.Yet we pull together in love and strengthKnowing light always follows darkness.And, together, we can... Continue Reading →
What are dreams if no one sees them but you? If no one believes in them but you? Perhaps, if they are the kind of nightmares, this is a good thing. The fear is all your own. And the absence of buy in all around you tempers their intensity. If they are the wondrous kind,... Continue Reading →
Baby girl, you are bornWith endless, full potential.As your path may twist and turnRemembering that’s essential.Wildflowers start as seeds in wind,That, with time, build roots and grow tall.Colors more vivid than finger paint,True beauty through it all.Baby girl, I wish for youNever to feel struggle or strife.But, of course, it’s through challenge thatWe learn the... Continue Reading →
When will you be too old to want me there at bedtime?Will I always be the one you call when you are scared?Will there come a day you won’t ask to sleep with us when you are ill?I woke this morning, dangerously close to the edge of the bed.Shoulder a little sore from the position... Continue Reading →
Friday. There was sun.You were warm on my lap.In my arms.By my side. Overnight, the clouds rolled in and the wind blew hard.The sun turned its head away.Maybe forever. You had so much life left in you.So much light.How did it go so fast?Leaving me in darkness. I let myself blink and you were gone.If... Continue Reading →
No. They say it’s a complete sentence.But how would I know?I find it so hard to say no… at least expressly and affirmatively.But it is also true that I unwittingly say no all the time.It’s the quiet no. The one never spoken. The one no one hears.For, saying yes to one thing inevitably means saying... Continue Reading →
Have you ever had an idea? The kind that you feel in your bones? Your muscles? Your synapses? Your heart? When you think about it, everything feels natural. Scary, yes, but thrilling too. Perhaps it started off, wispy as a cloud faintly streaking an otherwise clear blue sky. Or like a dream that touches you... Continue Reading →
Soliloquy on Imperfectionism 