I sit with gratitude.I can hear myself think.The beautiful knowledge:I don’t need to drink.Not even “need,”I prefer it this way.Life’s so much better.(It surprises me to say.)I couldn’t have imaginedA life without booze.I certainly wouldn’t thinkIt’d be something I’d choose.I thought it would meanThat I’d lose my shimmer.That life without alcoholWould somehow be dimmer.But what... Continue Reading →
What happens to the dreams and callings we let lapse?The ones we walk away from?What do they do once we’ve turned our backs?Do they go on and live in someone else’s mind?Or do they pause,And wait…For you to, maybe, rewind?These streets, so familiar.Yet so foreign too.Like a dream I intuitively know…But can’t quite put my... Continue Reading →
Some days, there, I see it.You had to look away. You never understood my fire.You had to look away. When I didn’t do just right.When, in pain, I had to fight.You had to look away. And, when you looked,When our eyes met,I saw the fear and shame.I mustered lonely courage,So as not to live in... Continue Reading →
I’ve seen the shift a minute makesFor lifetimes, maybe more.The way the ever temp’ring tideBrings change upon the shore.The movement of a grain of sandExponential, collective, in time.Sand slips through the hourglass,While we’re gifted with the sublime.It’s always there for us to see.To feel and breathe and taste.But amidst the world‘s abundance,We miss it in... Continue Reading →
Desert hills rising,Like beacons.Wide open spaces.Nowhere to hide.Lizards sunning scaly skin,Like mine after all these years…Skitter away,With a sudden start.The fall of my feet,Upsetting the balance. With each arid breeze,The landscape is forever changed.The grains of sand,Displaced.The Princess and the Pea.You feel it…Before you know it…But it is happ’ning all the while.What is leftThrives in... Continue Reading →
That cup of tea, long grown cold.The scone, I shared it with.That labor of love, so many details.The few last, traded for peace.Those big plans to tidy up,Abandoned for practical things.Those few lines of something yet to be,A note to my future self.My work each night before I rest.The laugh I shared with a friend.That... Continue Reading →
I had too much to dream tonight.It woke me with a start.I dreamed I could lead a richer lifeAnd somehow make it art. All the possibilities,Future selves galore.Bursting in their fullness,Alive in technicolor. Like roses abloom in springtime,So many resplendent hues.Petals alight and turned towards sun,Not at all subdued. Dreams float free of timeAnd other... Continue Reading →
The year passed by and we never knewThat, with each day, we were changing too.Slowly sometimes, and through leaps and bounds.At times, subtle, yet in all profound.Who we are. Who we were. Who we’re going to be.Where it will take us, we’ll just have to see.But do not merely wait, you must take charge.Be bold.... Continue Reading →
Today, we start work on our house. It is something I have resisted for eleven years. When we moved in, I could not believe my great fortune. I saw it first in pictures sitting across the country as we planned our move. It was fairly unassuming but I just knew, even then, it would be... Continue Reading →
Soliloquy on Imperfectionism 